So you’re probably thinking this young mother doesn’t know what she’s doing and negligent. Or that I’m crazy for wanting to share something that should be private with the world.
But I want to say you’re wrong and my baby girl is a healthy breastfed baby, and she’s very well taken care of.
I’ve been a stay at home mom for 8 months and smoking weed keeps me sane.
I used to be so free always in and out of the car. Always working and thinking of a way for me to progress and perfect my craft. I had multiple jobs and prior to mom life and I smoked my blunts regularly…probably since high school.
Don’t let old ideas of a pot Head fool you. Ya girl is smart. I graduated high school with my cosmetology license. Worked as a hairstylist in the salon and freelance going on 7 years.
I did try college and honestly it wasn’t for me. I paid for 1 semester to realize that all that money and time wasted when I could purchase a book myself and study it and obtain the same knowledge without having to travel to sit in someone’s class.
Mind you I’m a terrible at math. And my math class was in a computer lab with no teacher. I was fed TF up and I refused to pay the school…. but of course ended up paying later because I’m scared of debt 😬🤦🏾♀️
I went on to become a body waxer at 19 while studying in school to be a Cosmetology educator, —one of the youngest to take the program at my beauty school. Because I was so young I wasn’t sure if being a teacher was really something I wanted to do so by 21 I was a licensed massage therapist.
Being so driven to work for myself and not have to punch a clock, last year I branched off starting my own massage and wax business at my in home studio and created my first product offering CBD body butter.
Please do understand, ya girl is no slouch. I understand what it is to struggle and work to get what I want.
But what I will say is this we black women are strong and should be worshiped for what we do. We bring forth life and then love it unconditionally. Whose to say I can’t find my peace at the end of the day sparking up.
I love my baby girl dearly and I’ve never had any love greater. Smoking weed allows me the patience I didn’t have initially to love my girl through all those crying fits, the endless cluster feeds, sore cracked nipples, PPD, hourly wakings, early mornings, and late nights
But just know at the end of the day to clear my mind of the fog I roll my Ls, spark it, and I’ll laugh the days pain, sadness, depression, fear, anxiety away. While simultaneously revealing my inner goofy, joyful, & happy self.
SBM – Nicole 💛💛